Coward

I am nothing like
My shadow
Which hides
I face myself always
I confront my choices everyday

I am...

I don't run away from fate
I look my soul in its face
And I give it what it needs
I give light
To the space between
Fiction and reality
Emotionally I welcome your heart
I embrace your fear
I speak to your rational thought
And from me
It makes perfect sense

Not...

I am open to the choices that contribute to my happiness
I don't use my past as a hinderance
You know what you want
So
Go for it

A...

In this life
Love is more often counterfeit
When you find it
Chase it
It means that much more
When you work for it
Only the weak
Make excuses
For poor choices

Coward!

Calling your bluff...

In love
You two look fine
But inside your heart cries
Not fulfilled
Like what was
You make due
Unhappily you try to
Build ties
But it won't suffice
With second place
Because if she knew
The phone call took place
After my decline
I would hate to take your place
The wraf
Green face...

I wish you much courage
All I want is for you to be true
Your heart has never been more loyal
More content
More exuberant
With anyone but
Me...
Is that not true?
You said love one time...
I know where your heart lies
In my smile
My eyes
My...

So
In tune
I see you
And you love me
More than you are willing to say
So easily discouraged but you know what's true
That's why I'm calling your bluff
You need me
And our hearts longs for
Soul tunes
We sung
Through laughs
Sincere love
So fold your cards
No more games
No more bluffing
I can't take this pain...

I dare you to be
Subjected to my face
One glimpse in my eyes
Hear me speak one word
Have my skin touch yours
I bet
You can not resist
The soul tie to strong
The bond unbreakable
Our love unstoppable
No boundaries
Forever present
Infinite
We are

I live

I live through the possibility
Of love
Long nights
And sun filled days
New adventures
And long awaited waves
Sun bathing in
Knowledge
I glisten beneath the stars
In dim light
I make you smile
At thoughts of acceptance
Peace
Tranquility
I give you everything
I give you me
I give you
Life
For all eternity
I hope you seek me...

Sweet dreams

I can rest now
I found peace in the space you consume now
In thought
You read me
And now I'm at peace
So I can seek
That dark space
Between my eyelids
Gravity
Pulling me to dreams
I retreat
Deep sleep
Sweet dreams
Finally...

Heart is smiling...

Everyday I am happy with a recent decision

Hints the reason for my heart smiling

So I want to take a moment

Some reflection time

Some much needed R&R

I welcome the sunshine

Kiss my soul

Make love to my skin

I welcome the light

I breath you in

And 

I show you

In a way you have never seen

In a way love has never known

In a way my soul longs

I smile

Not from my mouth

But from my heart

I give you happiness

On a new plateau

And you take it as you must

But I will say this

That this smile

That radiates from my chest

Is because

I know me best

And his love

And peace

Has surpassed my understanding

He is

Love 

And I am

Living...

Dreads...

Those long

Matted things 

Got me feeling

Like a dog in heat

And I am trying to contain

But temptation defeats

My mind lost in thought

With each touch

And I see

Strand by strand

Detailed stories

Of love and emotion

Unable to be conversed

You wear it well

Falling just in the right spot

Tempting me to touch places I should not

And there is nothing better than

Running fingers through you

Tangible excitement

I envision smiles neverending

Joy unyielding

You feel amazing

I knew it could be true

The connection stable

Growing

Like these things

Sprout from the mind

Of a man who craves

To make my heart his home

Dreads

Who would have thought

You

Would take me there

On an emotional journey

Through hair

Something so simple

Giving me great pleasure

And stories to treasure

Forever

I will never forget

The way

You speak

Quiet whispers

Sending it all through the tips

Of my fingers

Doing it again and again

Addicted to your wisdom

Originally posted on my Tumblr (www.audriwrites.tumblr.com) approximately 3 months ago for... :)

Broken Communication

Some say
Opposites attract
But in our case
Opposites lack
The ability to communicate
In reverse we say
All that needs to be said
Without consideration to
Your needs
My feelings
Or the simple fact that words bleed
Ears
And hinder progression
Skeptical
Future at stake
We try to mend
The way we communicate
Broken
Like the crack in my voice
From the screams
You seem never to get it
Unsure of what other lessons to learn
We can't keep up with the rhythm
We fight every ounce of willingness
To listen
So we hear nothing
And communication remains
Broken...

The Unknown

Unclear
So much so
That I can see crystal
In the fog
Future so cloudy
Today I took a fall
Stumbled into the present
Vision absent
Life shifted
Away from what was
Into what has always been
Now unveiled
And the only thing that is certain
Is that my path
I no longer steer
Guided toward the light
But I understand that I must be malleable
For life is unpredictable
Just like that stumble
And my options were made a new
Just like my direction
I now follow to
Seek clarity
My fog
I walk aimlessly
Into
The unknown

A Brick Wall

I was making progress
Then I hit
A brick wall
Larger than 20 feet tall
And I stumbled back
Looking left and right
I felt defeated
What happened to my fight?
Fear consumed me
My heart stung greatly
And I
I had to make a decision
Love was new
Sweet
Nurturing if I returned
But on the other side of that wall
My mind deemed you
The greatest love of all
And
Now
I must decide my fate
As I stand here and face
Glaring at the brick wall
The median
Between
Me
And
You

In limbo...

I am stuck in the middle
wishing
hoping
praying for equilibrium
but no hope yet
still miss understood
unheard
unclear
with no words
I can't change my state
but I hope life is better
with the influence of fate
change my space
put me in first place
because no one wants to be
in limbo

Why I write about love?

Someone asked me the other day why I wrote about love. Never been asked that before although I am aware of the fact that love and life consume my work. I'm extremely fascinated by the affects of love and life.

Love to me is more than just a relationship with a loved one or a significant other. To me love applies to many other aspects of life. The passion for love and recognition of its true purpose helps us to understand how to conduct ourselves on a day to day basis. Because quite frankly I'm tired of hearing that someone killed because they were in love, or they are jealous because they are in love, or they hate because they are in love, etc.  I do recognize the thin line between love and hate but that same line is between right and wrong and good and evil to be honest. But when you love you do not hate! Period!

I go more in depth about this in my current literary project, The Love Trials. I hope you all read and do share your thoughts!

Poetically Speaking

So I a have not written a post in awhile so I feel the need to share somethings.   I use this blog to speak poetically, but that does not mean you will not find poetry on my other blogs.   Each of my blogs caters to a certain feel, a certain aspect of life and love that I wish to share with you.   Poetically Speaking encompasses more of my poetry surrounded by the situations of life and love.  I try to talk about things most would not here.  I share feelings that most wish to say but don't here.  I do it so that we can create a bond through words and you can have somewhere to come and know that you can relate to it because  IT IS REAL!

I pride myself on being honest in my work, unless it is deemed fiction of course.  I like to share truth because in my opinion that is the only way to make it relatable.    I want my readers thousands of miles away to be able to feel the pain, excitement, joy that is encompassed in my work because they know and understand the situation and share my emotion.

I speak poetically because I am a poet and I see the world in poetry.   Thank you so much for reading me.  Because that is what I give you, me.  My heart, my love, my world, my situations, my emotions, my anger, my frustrations, me.  And in everything that you read there is a message of hope, peace and love.  I try to show that I am a work in progress and yes it may be tough today, but it will be better tomorrow.  Broken hearts are a phase, encountering jealousy is a phase, loosing life is inevitable, etc.  The more you talk about it, the more you free up yourself, your mind, your soul to focus on the positive.

So again, thank you so much for sharing my stories, my poetry.  If there is anything more I can do for you please let me know.

One Love,

Audreyanna

Greed, Green Eyes & Ignorance

Uncommon
Inconsistent
What we considered
Non-existant
But it's here

Unfavored
Unjust
And betraying
Favored amongst the masses
And the dark can no longer mask it
Now in the light
It fights against the just
Greed
Green eyes
Considered untouched
And now we fall victim to
Ignorance
And God could help those who
Stand for it
But they don't want his love
They fight against it
For power is sought
But
The strength to change the inevitable
Lies in the hearts of believers
Who fear God
And love the unchangeable
Greed
Is a disease
Green eyes
Is the host
And our ignorance
Is the contagion

No one wins a war
But love can fight for the cause

The Passion to Give

Seeing double
Blurred vision
Unexpected
Like all of a sudden
I see two
And nothing is clear
Except
TRUTH

I feel like I am trapped
Pinned down in a spiral of the unfit
Being pulled down in a barrel of the selfish
Because
I am learning
The hard way
That giving is harder for some
Receiving we are all receptive
Without expecting to help
Divide happiness
Peace
And surplus
Instead
In the time of struggle
We latch on to frugal
And in most cases
A blatant unwillingness to be there
For someone else
And I can see color
Even though you all are blurry
And I know that when the tables are turned
Hands are drawn
Palm facing up
Eager to receive
Oblivious to others need
And you will surely see
That
The passion to give
Supersedes receipt

The Happiest Woman Alive

I am happiest when...
I thought I could easily answer
The question
Everyday before
Today
But now I know
Love and happiness lies in you
A love of my own
You show me
The simple things
And life is easy
Still
In your arms
Breath matches
Heartbeat dances
To the same rhythm
Drama aside
Passion multiplied
To easy
You and I
Make me
The happiest woman alive

Chest opened
Heart ripped
Deprived of chance
Opportunity to life
Choice
Now separated from
The possibility
I don't get the chance to cease the moment
Smell the roses
Or lay in your presence
Repeatedly
Because you chose to separate
My existence
From the possibility
Why?
Love is not easy
And being in love is crazy
Emotions strong
Captivating realities
Of the wants
And dislikes
The needs
Desires not alike
But
Preservation of the ability
To come back HOME
Where the heart is...
Home
Where my love is
Home
In the heart
To which you hold the key
And your faith
All I ever want is for you to believe in me
Trust
That I will make it better
Trust that love is all we need to weather
The difficulties

#MotiVatioNWeDnesdaY

So I wanted give some motivation today.  My motivation comes in the form of rational thinking and tough love.  So I have a few questions...

When you woke up this morning how did you feel?

What did you expect from your day?

What is the situation you need motivation out of?

What do you need motivation to do?

Why are you not motivated?

If you have answered one or more of these questions, I would like to suggest that you change your outlook.  Don't look for motivation, instead focus on the need.  Not sure what I mean...well take these examples.  Think about how you feel versus how you need to feel.  What you expect versus what you need to expect.  Where you are versus where you need to be, etc.  Sometimes we allow ourselves to get caught up in the lack of motivation versus what we need.  You will find that focusing on the need will channel your motivation.  It will eliminate the questions.  Some people think of what they need to do and think they need motivation when they need to simply understand the NEED for what they are doing.  That need serves as the purpose/reason.  The need serves as the motivating factor.

Motivation by definition is the act or an instance of motivating,  or providing with a reason to act in a certain way  (2) the state or condition of being motivated   (3) something that motivates;  inducement; incentive (dictionary.com).  

With that being said we should stop allowing people and things to motivate things that we may not need.  Only you know what you need.  You know where you want to be and what your expectations are.   Stop being lazy and codependent and think about you needs.  I don't understand how so many people want to put off their current state on someone else.  Never taking the fault for why they are in the positions their in.  It is understandable that we do not have control over all circumstances, but we do have the capability to make choices.  Our choices contribute to the circumstances as well.  So instead of sulking or being lazy trying to place blame, take responsibility for your choices.  If you aren't where you want to be you need to make new decisions.  What do you need to do to get to where you want to be?  Allow that to be your motivation.  Let me know what happens!  

One Love,

Audreyanna

Shades of You

So
You woke up
Eyes glowing
Sun kissed
Gazing into my eyes
And I
Never surprised when you
Turn shades of blue
Melancholy
Bound by emotions
Your to afraid to
Expose
So in denial
You act as if I
Don't matter
Now
Shades of confusion
You
Try to determine the difference
Between love
And in love
Failed
Now frustration filled arms
Keep you away
From
Me
And I
Bring you back to
Shades of joy
With just one kiss
You remember the love
And your fixed
Discarded discombobulation
Then you see
A glimpse of happiness
In past lies
Or in new thighs
And you
Turn again
Throwing shade from every angle
Now
I
Fed up
Take turns showing you the emotions you gave me in one motion
Back turned
Head high
I keep walking
With no concern for your melancholy
You want to bring clarity to your confusion now
But I don't hear you
I have joy
In the eyes who take pride in the stride
That led me away from you

Shades of Envy

Your eyes
Now a funky shade of green
And I
Still see things
Bluer than ever
Yet
I can't seem to find the meaning
Behind those
Green eyes
You had the opportunity to share life
And love
Now only to find that all that was
Is no longer desired
So you
See
Shades of envy
Longing for what was once your own
With hopes of
Second chances
And you digress
For years
But what seem like moments
In soul time
You make due
With comfort ability
You seek space
In time capsules
Recollecting
And your eyes keep getting greener
And your heart keeps getting weaker
And your soul lonelier...
Ruffling through the shades of envy

Love is...

Love is...
Only as strong as you make it
Only blind as you allow
And
Only as long as you demand
Love is...
Supreme
In the grand scheme
Love is everything
Life
Breath
Speech
Its keen
Its KING
To understanding purpose
To fulfilling your mission
The definition of love
Encompasses existence
So
Love is...

Only You

No matter how much I look forward
My heart looks back
Only love so true
Makes the present fade to black
And the past
Now the desirable
Only you
Him who keeps butterflies fluttering
Him whose love holds no boundaries
I feel you yearning
I hear your soul call me
But I don't answer
Because your heart and mind
Not alike
I want you to believe the unconscious
I want you to make the emotion tangible
Show me you
And all that encompasses
The only man I have ever truly wanted
Show me
Everything that
Only you would know

He, My Love

I anticipated being surrounded by blank
pages
and canvas
Where I can be free
And
Supported by strength
The edges
Rooted in truth
And wrapped in peace
Because you
He
My love
Will be
The man who makes sense of my faith
Will
Keep me in line with right
And
Create a pathway
Tailored to my thoughts
And shaped for my grace
He
My Love
Will be
The only man that God ordained
My righteousness
And that is what love looks like
In soul's space

I feel lifeless
Like a broken heart
You broke my wings
And I can not fly in peace
I need you to break free
Speak calm to the storm of my misery
If only you knew
How hatred encompassed me

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The Fight

I wish not death on you
On me
On he
Them
Or even
Those who take for granted the little things
The simple pleasures
The freedom to wake
Not having to fear
Or fight
For the one thing you lack incite
Life
Because
Nothing is forever
But while you take pleasure in it
Life
Appreciate it
For those who are strong
Take advantage of the opportunity
To fight to live
And those who are weak
Selfishly seek
End
To the greatest gift
Love brings...

I'm in love with...

I am in love with life
Like I am in love with you
You being she
The girl that makes up
Me
In life
and in love with self
I make do
I have learned too
love she most
love her more than you
And nothing's better than
Being in love
With
You
She
Me
Eye smiles
and soul tunes
Life is so much better
when I know how to love
You
She
Me
In love with...

In your absence...

body not present

I try not to sulk

in your absence

I 

try to make due

with the long distance

but my mind lingers on the next 

moment

the next opportunity

I'd get

to make the most of it

to make the seconds turn to minutes

from minutes to hours

and hours to years

in your embrace

I 

try to make due

but the long distance doesn't soothe

the passion you ignite

the fire I fight

because we are so right

that no even distance

could hide

desire...

Open to life

Like I am open to you

And all is new

In love

With no limits

Liberating Love

I am free
Unrestricted
Just able to be
Me
At all cost
And you love it
Even all the faults
So
Lucky I am
To have
The ideal man
In love with free
Just as much as he is in love with me
And we meet
In the middle
To breathe
So
Each exhale
Deems peace
Loving
Every
Liberated part
Of you...
With hopes of enduring
This love
For eternity

A Poem A Day - Light As A Feather

I come down soft
Tickling the skin
Stroking that hair that causes you to grin
Now smiling you
Make way for the new
Possibilities
You are eager
About
The new
Opportunities
And we are limitless
Exploring new abilities
And
I can't wait to see
Which hair you stroke
Or which part the skin you will tickle
Because if joy comes in this form
It is sure to linger
A few extra minutes
Before it hits the gound
So for now
I don't want my smile
To tell the story
Of what I've been through
I just want to show
The place you take me too

A to Z Challenge on AUDRIWRITES BLOG NOW!!!

A to Z Challenge - 30 Days of Comic Relief

So if you know me at all I am definitely pushing myself outside of my comfort zone by writing about comedy in general.  Although I consider myself to be somewhat funny, more of a sarcastic funny really, but I am definitely going to try and thoroughly examine what contributes to a successful comedy.  

For all that are familiar with the with A to Z Challenge don’t judge me I am a rookie.  And for those who are unfamiliar with the Challenge basically I will be posting each day with a letter from A to Z (starting with A) being the topic for the post of that day.   If that doesn’t define the challenge thorough enough for you please feel free to click the link below:

http://www.a-to-zchallenge.com/p/what-is-blogging-from-to-z.html 

Hope you all enjoy!  

One Love,

Audreyanna

Nothing Left To Give

Hope is in the yearning

Never loosing sight of life's purpose

Having faith in the outcome
Loving until you have nothing
Left to give
That is free
Something that cost nothing
Can get you everything
If you think about it
Find that light
That speaks to your heart
And listen with ears
That navigate the soul
Purpose
Remember
Hope is in the yearning
Never loose sight of life's purpose
Have faith in the outcome
And love until you have nothing
Left
To
Give

just when I gave up on
the possibility
God showed me a new light
a new right
a favor so great
I could only hope for
an ounce of faith
and I did

the birth of great success
great motivation
a new determination
to be better
to be wiser
to work harder
and I thank you
because I almost gave up
and
now
I can't even sip from the cup
it overflows...

My Heart On Canvas

shocked at how the paint
turned to words
as the colors splattered the emotions of you
on the canvas
so pissed off
so confused
so torn
in search of the truth
you leave a question mark
you break my heart
and with one motion
one word
you mend it
but
I can't wait for it
I have to go
I built a brick wall
no turning back
can't see you
I am through
no questions now
my heart
has left you...

On...

I am going
on...
as far away from here as I can
because
I choose not to let lies win
I choose not to
allow assumptions in
I am going
on...
right to his desires
where his love is strong
where a man knows how to identify
when love has grown
one who takes his time and
shows
love in gentle touches
hugs
and appreciation
where actions speak loud
and words compliment
I am going
on...
because this love
is where I belong

The Creator

I was designed by the creator to be fearless.  I was designed to be strong.  I have no limits to my greatness.

the creator
the sculptor
the manipulator
made me to be
woman
graceful
with a sound mind
brave heart
and
courageous
at all cost
I find myself
mimicking
the creator
I want to shape you
I want to mold you
I want to manipulate you into being everything you think you are not
I want to give you the tools to build
a world
without doubt
the tools to call on your creativity
to create a masterpiece
I give you that
as I give you me
I am missing a few colors
but I have faith
and believe
that the creator
will paint me

Talking in his sleep

mumbling words
spoke a story
unheard
until now
as I lay there
trying to make out
the truth
for jumbled thoughts
and groggy tunes
told the tale
of infidelity
and I only found out
because he was taking in his sleep...

Rest in Peace...

There is really no appropriate title for this post as I am merely commenting on a Facebook post added by a friend of mine this week.

I am very objective and took no immediate offense to the post, but rather tried to consider the viewpoint of the poster.  The post read "Whitney Who?"

The photograph is at this link 

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=3008489463487&set=p.3008489463487&type=1&theater with this caption “America's fighting men and women sacrifice much to ensure that our great nation stays free. We owe a debt of gratitude to all our Military that have paid the ultimate price for this cause, as well as for those who are blessed enough to return from the battlefield unscathed.” Allen Boyd 

The photograph shows coffins of soldiers who have lost their lives in service to our wonderful country.  This was intriguing because it seems like we want to redirect focus to the servicemen rather than off of Whitney Houston's shocking death as if to devalue her death.  I, and I can only speak for myself, have not now and will never discredit the thousands of men and women who volunteer to fight for our country's safety.  I, not now and will never, devalue the devastation and tragedy of any type of loss.  I do not feel that by celebrating a life, of any kind, devalues the lives lost by those who serve our country.  I think that the post was immaturely represented in that it attempts to prioritize deaths.  Would you post this photo if an immediate family member died?  If your mother passed away would you post a photo of soldiers and say "Mother Who"?  I don't think anyone would because the loss is great.  And your attention and focus is on dealing with that loss.   You would never devalue your mother's death.

There are thousands of people who die everyday and no one even knows who they are.  Yet, people die everyday, innocent people, senselessly but we are not directly affected as sometimes we are unaware or have no direct or indirect relationship to those individuals.  It is not our place to pass judgement.  We can not fault people who have developed relationships with this vocalist.  Those who viewed her life as a testimony of strength and great faith.  No one in life is perfect by far, but her life and her music brought hope to many people.  Those who grew to know and love her music allowed her words, lyrics to directly affect their lives.  For all we know she could have saved lives through her words and her faith.  I do not think that by celebrating her life, that we can not also celebrate the lives of those who fight or have fought everyday for this country.

Now there were several posts/comments in the thread that I don't particularly agree and I won't respond to each individually but I will say that regardless to how someone dies, no one is absolutely perfect.  Many of the individuals on that thread are not perfect, but I would hate to hear what someone would say about you when you past away.   I would hope that they would not say that "you got what you deserved" or that "it was your fault".  Regardless that is not the reason for celebrating a life.  You celebrate the good things.   We are uncertain how many soldiers fight because they have nothing to lose, or whose to say that they don't devalue their own lives so they just fight with hope to die?  We are uncertain of those things just as we are uncertain of what Whitney Houston was actually going through but we remember her for all the great she has done and we remember those soldiers for the great things that they have done.

This post is not to attack anyone but to merely provide a more objective viewpoint and to voice an opinion.  

Southern Belles, Fiction Novel, Synopsis

Southern Belles is a novel that takes readers on an emotional and dramatic journey into the lives, hearts and minds of a group of women who are true Southern Belles.  

Southern Belles is driven by the secrets of Jazzmine Phillips.  Jazzmine is originally from Chicago, but has lived in Texas for two years, in which she has developed a great friendship under the alias Alana Gaines with LaShelle, Natalie, Yolanda and Brittney.  When Jazzmine hit rock bottom, nearly being beaten to death, she fled Chicago and never looked back, determined to never let sex and money fuel desperation.  When Alana gets a feeling that she may have encountered a shady business deal, she calls on a friend from home to investigate.  Alana reluctantly discovers that LaShelles dedication to Slayton, is greater than any regard for Alanas best interest.

LaShelle, Shelle, age 30, is a woman of great knowledge but struggles with finding a balance between her professional, social and love life.  LaShelle is willing to do anything for the man she loves.  She is so blinded by love that it was inevitable that she would have to endure the consequences of being in a relationship with a notorious thug.

Natalie, Nat, age 25, spends most of her time climbing the corporate ladder, partying and seeking love.  Natalie has relations with three men; a man who doesnt really want to commit, a man who finally realizes that she is the one he wants and a man who she thought was willing to love her without obligation, through which she slowly discovers which gentleman truly has her best interest at heart.

Yolanda is a spoiled, unmotivated brat, who at the age of 28, still has no true goal for her life.  Yolanda lives at home with her parents in which she has no real responsibility.  Yolanda has acquired great education, at the expense of her parents, in hope to continue to receive their financial support.  She is perceived as naïve, but she always happens to be in the right place at the right time; because of that, she is able to shine light on a lot of things that have been going on right under the others noses.

Brittney, Britt, age 27, single handedly takes care of her son, Caleb, while running a very successful business and dealing with the trifling, selfish and freeloading man who fathered her child.  Brittney, so unhappy with the way her life was headed, leaves her babys father and jumps on a chance to be with her one true love, Maxwell Caleb Lawson, the man whom which she named her son after!   What Brittney thought would be a fairy tale ending turns into a nightmare.  Brittney finds out that everything that glitters isnt gold and there was a reason that she and Maxwell were not meant to be.

The Belles meet monthly; a time for each of them to reflect on their lifes journey, discuss issues and provide support for one another.  With this being a very dynamic group of women, the meetings can become unruly and not all the time do the ladies see eye to eye.

Southern Belles highlights the strength and determination southern women have for success.  Southern Belles seeks to promote self awareness, dignity and pride amongst women.  Southern Belles tells of how to succeed when faced with the inevitable aspects of life.

Who will persevere?  Whose life will end?  Will they remain friends?

Ode to Poetry

So my ability to speak poetically is easily summed up in a phrase, "When I lost courage to speak, I sought refuge in a pen and discovered a voice, poetically spoken."  I have for many years, and still believe, that this same drive is the essence of each post and poem you read.  In all my work I strive to give you me.  The "me" that you may not otherwise understand if you were not able to read.

So please make sure you let me know what you all think.

Here is a poem that I like to call "Ode to Poetry":

A tribute to
an old fashion love
a love that stands true
a golden dove
flying great altitudes
I sing new tunes
in your arms
curled up
with
pen and pad
in heaven again
I give you all of me
each emotion
and great memory
I need you to
summarize my journey
poetry
and we live forever
poetically
speaking
in phrases that enliven
with lyrics
a symphonic melody
I need you now
and forever
so my soul I give to you
that encompasses all of me
I love you always
to
poetry

Uninspired

So for awhile I have been uninspired, and I honestly can not figure out why.  For the longest time my greatest motivation and inspiration comes from wanting to make a difference in the world; to shake brains and provide consciousness to the consistently overlooked factors that hinder progress; to share my feelings of love and its power to affect (whether positive or negative).  And all I can do is continue to speak to you verbally and hope that the message speaks to you.  I can only hope that my passion creeps into you and sparks a fire that never dies.

The only way for me to get back in touch with my passion is to figure out why I fell in love in the first place.  I did that today.  I thought back to the beginning, when my soul was imparied and I felt that I had no where to turn.  When I felt that I had nothing, I sought refuge in a pen, and developed a voice poetically spoken.  Writing gave me breath.  I no longer had to wait to exhale.  I was no longer existing.  I learned from my mistakes, I could look back on the misery and challenge myself to be better.  My life became an example, a tutorial and I allowed myself to be read.

When I realized that I was not in this alone and there were others who shared the same views I wrote more for them.  I lived harder to share my stories.  I wanted to create a relatable journey, with no limits.  For I discovered that fear is the greatest factor in complacency and I despised it.  I wanted nothing but new experiences and I fought hard for it.  Always defying gravity, going against the grain and testing boundaries.  I didn't always make others happy, but I had to set my soul free in order to be beneficial to anyone around me.

Pain hurts but it is the best teacher.  No one wants to continuously relive pain.  Any sane human being will want to fight for better.  I hope that none of you are uninspired.  I am here to dispel all rumors, evil thoughts, and fear that has you binded to complacency.  That has you stuck in redundancy because you want to just "blend in".   God created chameleons for that.  He created you to matter, that is what you are made of.  Everything on this earth has a role, plays a part and their part matters.  You matter.

I wish I could rid us of all the negativity, and evoke positive thoughts in our blood streams, but that would just be to easy.  And anything worth fighting for is not worth having so, when I look back on my blogs, my literature and poetry in ten years; I need to be able to say I inspired clarity; that I turned on light bulbs that shined peace and serenity.
 

The Perfect Mate

Men are always so quick to say what they want or do not want in a woman, but what makes "a man" the know it all when it comes to finding a perfect mate?  I mean men can be pricks and some very single because they do not have the capacity to grasp the basics.  Yes women are naturally nurturing and emotional beings, but if it was not for our compassion and strength, a man, would not grace this earth.  We, women, are here to be fruitful and multiply.  We embrace woman hood and the capacity to give birth.  Ideally every woman would be able to understand that this is a true blessing, but everyone on this earth is not designed the same.  Some can withstand more than others because of mindset and its okay because the variance in individual personalities and capabilities make up diversity and no one really wants to be consumed in redundancy.   I mean what would the world be like if you could premeditate everything?  No spontaneity?  No surprise?

At any rate, women love men, period, naturally we are designed that way.  And just so I am clear, I am liberal, I take no offense to same sex marriages or partnerships, it is not my place to judge, but for the purposes of this article/post this is nearly my viewpoint and my relational interest as a heterosexual.  No disrespect intended.

So as a woman I want a man not afraid to show concern, when needed.  A man strong enough to admit his faults and confess his love and be better for the woman in his life.   A man that understands the heart of a woman is not a toy.  A man who takes ownership and handles his business.  We want the man not ashamed to love even when we have gained a few pounds.

I think is funny that men will go into detail about the woman he wants, what she should and shouldn't do, have or what she should and should not act like, but for a woman we are simple.  We love a man for that fact that we know his eye may wonder, or that his pride may interfere with what he is know he should or shouldn't do.  We accept that about you.  We will do our best to love and trust you but when you act out you leave us no choice but to do the same.

I just want men to understand that loving a woman is just as hard as loving a man and when you are overly demanding, insecure, jealous and prideful it hinders the love capability.  We just want to love you for who you are.  I just wish that instead of trying to define the "perfect mate" that we as men and women learn to love all of the things that make us fall in love.  Whether it is what would or wouldn't identify as the perfect mate.  We can love perfectly all of those things that surprises us.  That is what "falling in love" feels like.

Trouble

So I think we will be in great trouble if we continue to allow our youth to be miss guided.  There, in my opinion, is a common misconception about the education of our youth and their ability to make sound decisions however they seem to be making the adults believe that they are more than capable.  Just so stubborn and hard to please, what should we do with these troubled teens? 

My concern stems from the fact that there are more followers than leaders in this younger generation.  In my generalization I find that today's teen want everything handed to them and sugar coated, as my parents would say.  Don't want to know what's right, just want to do what is right for now.  Selfish and self-centered we allow these to be the generation that our children will see.  The generation that our children will long to be.  

Unfortunately they assume that life is as easy as what they see on TV.  They are all thinking of "get rich quick" schemes.  Everyone wants to be a rapper, and actor or a model with no foundation or brains to follow.  I find myself trying to explain and provoke understanding amoungst this generation.  They must realize that even if they do happen to make the right connections and/or happen to get to a place they want to be, what will they do if their attitude, lack of professionalism and poor speech land them on their asses?  What will they do then with only one degree, a hope and a dream?

I think that it is important for us to educate them at all cost.  Work experience and an education go hand in hand.  Just because you have a degree that does not certify your common sense or your ability to comprehend the tasks at hand.  Doing and reading is two totally different things; but what do we know?  Can't help for being told to just "let them live" and "follow your dream"!  Not to discourage the message but to educate about what work ethic and dedication goes along with that.  EXPERIENCE is key.  I believe that some of them think they are going to talk their way to the top.  What are you with no common sense?  Where are you with no ethics?  Where are you with no education?  Where are you without any sort of foundation?  Questions that we should make sure to provide the answers to.

I wish that you consider Generation X (as I am on the cusp of X and Generation Y or the Millennials), I will refer to that generation as "WE" , so please take notice to the fact that we are very hard workers, we understand the value of "paying dues" and we are willing to take what we need to get to where we want to be.  We gain the experience.  Please now consider Generation Y, a generation of followers, just like homosexuality is an epidemic, not to take it away from those who have chosen to take that path, but consider how many are just following.  Please also consider Generation Y and their ability to lean and concentrate on achieving goals in the entertainment or music industry?  How many of them are actually participating in internships or working to support the dream?  Most are just blogging, YouTubeing (for lack of a better term) or solely dependent on the Internet.  I watched a series of videos on youtube where "twerking" is the new thing.  Although it is a form of dance, parents are not considering the message it sends for a 12-16 year old making a video, with underwear on, "twerking" and posting it on the internet.  There should be no question of why are children are getting raped, its because their inocence is being stripped because of what is avaliable via internet for them to view and mimic.  Just think, if the Internet failed/crashed tomorrow, what would they do?  How would they respond?  Would they still have the same aspirations?

Again, these are only things to consider, and this is only a generalization, I would never say it is solely fact because there are some exceptions to the rule and I believe that behavior and perception is dependent upon up bringing.  In my opinion most single parent children learn from an early age the struggle and want to make sure to give their all to make a different and/or change their surroundings.  In comparison to two parent homes, where most of the children are crutched through life and worry not about the small things; therefore they take advantage of almost everything.  That which deprives them of acquiring traits of persistence and dedication.  And if there is persistence and dedication it is not for the greater good it is more often than not for self preservation. And once again, it is a generalization so if it does not speak to you individually.

I think I fear that we are troubled because we are amoungst a generation who does not understand what it means to struggle.   Struggle brings about humility which feeds sincerity and drive. 

Something NEW

No longer waiting on those with planted feet
I am loosening the roots
Letting God up root me

New heights
New lengths
Bright lights
He makes
Doing away with
Old ways
Old logistics
Easy
Mind at ease
Peace enstilled
My heart can see
My soul can breath
Serenity is...
It is indeed.

I want something new
I need to make life meaningful
Hope the arms of my soul reach out to you
Let its illumination enliven you

Innocent

So we are innocent until proven guilty, but if it is not proven what about me?  Why should I die when the hate wasn't for me?  Why would you risk removing life from this earth for the chance to get him or her?  Is it really that crucial?  I can't help but wonder everytime I think of these questions every time I think of lost loved ones.  Ask yourself how would you feel if you were surrounded in dirt six feet beneath the surface?

My heart goes out to the Innocent; those individuals lost by the hand of a drunken driver, the scorned lover or angered shooter.  I am not naive enough to hope for a perfect world, but I have enough
passion for life and a love for GOD that will allow me to hope and have faith that one day we will be able to not fear life because of the possiblity of someone else's inconsiderate actions.

As I lay here beneath the surface
I dwell on what was
The life I lived
The hearts that loved and longed for my presence

I cast not a curse on your name
Your life
Or your seed
But wish that you forever remember me

My last breath was at your hand
My last glipse of life was lost to your hate
A spirit unknown to you
And with my soul now traces your footsteps
I can only wish that I be the last
Make my memory your chance
Let us preserve
The Innocent

This was actually written in memory of Marsai Murray. 

The Love Trials

In order to be able to effectively recognize and grow in love one must experience a series of trials and learning experiences in the form of lovers.  Some people are just capable of accepting, delivering and recognizing love once.  They have to discipline to stay and work on perfecting it.  Others, like myself, learn from doing.  The more you experience, the more you learn and with that the love timeline is developed.  I just happen to believe that you will not find that one until you experience the following:

THE FIRST LOVE

The first love is the one you laid eyes on and knew you had to have, or you were caught off guard by the connection you uncontrollably developed.  In most cases he/she is the first crush or first lust.  That individual you develop your first connection with.  You gain confidence in yourself and in your relationship.  You become comfortable.   You build on likes and dislikes, but the connection of the soul is never developed.  This is your introduction to love, being in love is still foreign.


THE LESSON


Usually the first encounters are ridiculous.  You are embarrassed or he/she is nothing that you wanted ever.  But that one day you looked into their eyes and something about them melted you away. You wanted to give it a chance and you did, so you learned and grew in love with them.  The person that you bared much pain, put up with much and learned nothing until he/she was gone.  During this relationship you loved hard, but you loved wrong.  Still played by insecurities, could not love what you saw, always wanted to changed something.  Settled for much because you began to believe true love would never come.  The lesson occurs post relationship; kind of like an epiphany.  Light bulb goes off and you are over them.  No longer attracted to the individual.  Some people become friends with this individual, but most often they have the greatest affect.  It was because of them you found your place in and with love.   

HEART BREAKER

This person is usually the individual that you gave the most to.   You loved hard, gave your all and the two of you either did not see eye to eye or you allowed your feelings to guide.  Love is blind here.  You heard what you wanted, believed what you wanted skewed you perception of reality.  With the heart breaker you are naive.  All that you expected is all that you would never receive.  You long for all that you were not willing to give.  This in turn lead to heartbreak.  You are sadden because you gave your all (or thought you gave your all) and got nothing in return.  In some cases you may even experience great shame.  So, you decide to turn hurt into hatred to get over 'em.  But, they still affect you however, because every time you encounter this person your mind and body want them still, but your heart and soul divert.  So you know even though they still touch you in a way, you know it will NEVER work.  You decide that there is no need to experience HEARTBREAK twice.

THE TEST

This individual made you vulnerable to fast.  You feel in love because your mind allowed you to believe that you were on the same page.   The only thing is, you were in it alone.  It started out great, thought you had it all figured out.  Blamed yourself for that persons actions, experienced a great deal of reverse psychology.  Never what you expected, just happened and when it happened it was so good that you thought they were the ONE.  Not really!  Just a facade because this person usually uses you in the TEST the way you used the THE LESSON to bounce back from THE FIRST LOVE.  THE TEST is just to show you how it feels.

THE SOUL MATE

One look in the eyes, that subtle touch, "me toos" and soul tunes on the same station.  Love like nothing you would ever think you would experience, fairy tail shit.  Unselfishly you gave and expected nothing in return.  It's so funny how easy love turns to being in love and you did not force it. This person is the ONE, for lack of a better term.  This person is someone you encountered when you are mentally ready to embark on the journey.  You lived hard and loved harder; you learned and longed for this individual so you vowed that when you found them that you would do right.  No one could make you harm this person.  There was no one that would stand in the way.  This is that person whom makes you warm, soft, and emotional.  Love made perfect, and you love all the imperfections.  Feel heat even when you here them pissing...Its real.  The MATE for the SOUL; all loves trials have unfold your true destiny.   And now all the tales every told about being in love, make sense.

Stop Tryin...

Some people think they can and will understand everything.  That to me is a bit farfetched.  I happen to feel that there are a great deal of things that we will be unable to comprehend until we are ready to allow ourselves to face the truths that come with understanding.

The way I piece together my words sometimes you think you have it or me figured out and you don't even know what I am saying.  I mean he is not always actual, love is always factual because I live by, with and through it, but the struggle is not always mine.  I want you all to get the message and not try to read me.  My mind is so complex hell sometimes I dont even get me, but that is life.  I make due with what I am at any given moment.

I ask that you stop trying...I mean really just stop trying to understand me and comprehend the words.  Interpret them as they speak to you, let your heart be heard.  I am sure as you read something stirs, so you can do either one of two things, (1) you ignore the rational to hear what you have already deemed appropriate or accurate or (2) take it as it is given.  Make the situation your own and apply the situation to your story.  In order to understand me, you have to you have to understand you!  Whatever comes to mind when you read the lines, take that and make it your own.  And then, let me know how it moves you!

I want to here from you...

Funny how things change...

So, I told myself over and over and over again that I was focused.  Focused on me now.  I couldn't, I wouldn't let anyone deter me from the goal...a better me.  But it's so funny how things change.  It is so funny how emotions and feelings have a way of creeping in.  And I, woman first, and me second, have no choice but to allow them to guide.  I am feelings and they are the basis of my pride, or the lack there of.  I wish I could battle it.  I wish I had the heart of metal to conquer it, but it feels too damn good.  I can help this.  I want him more now.  More than I would ever allow myself to show.   I crave him now and so I hold back more.  I can't believe this shit.  I can't believe he did, or is doing a number on me.  FUCK!  What now?  I guess I have to swallow the pride and let love guide, better yet...


I want you more now

And I didn't know how to express this shit
You want more of me so you never quit
You make it known where your heart sits
I hear the sighs
I want to whisper them away
I never told you
But if you want to make this work
I won't stray
I swear at this point
It's working in your favor
All insecurities
Any jealousy
I long to comfort it
I will take you to a place
They will never exist
I want to be the company that you feel is heaven sent
And
It's so hard to put words on this
It's so inexplicable
As our hearts yearn
To eliminate the distance
We want to relate
And I want you to stay
Yet
I still have fear of it
I hope all goes well
Because
At this point
I can't turn back
I want to make forever with you prevalent
Let’s just hope your presence is dominant
May they fade away
And
You become prominent

And damn it's funny how
Just yesterday
I longed to
Be me
Love me
And let love pass me
To be more focused on me
But maybe it's time
And if that is what it is
I accept it
So
I will allow love
If it's meant
And I hope it is
Because it's so funny how
Yesterday I wasn't
And today I am having trouble fighting it

Sometimes all that I can not say, my poems say for me.  I just wish that today could be the future and yesterday history.  Life has its pace and God has his will; but I just want to make you feel, the way I do in the absence of all that is physical. 

Can you relate? 

2010: One year ago today.........

One year ago today I witnessed the United States of America evolve in a great way.  We can go nowhere else but up.

Please look back at my post titled "Presidential Inauguration 2009" as I reflect on that moment in history. 

I promise it is timeless.

One Love

Interesting....

So today was interesting as I had an encounter!  I was wondering if he was trying to tell me his feelings discreetly?  Luckily he had an obligation so he had to leave me, and then I am left questioning his reaction; thinkg about it all day.  So, I just wait, he will have to seek me in a few.  He can't hide from me or fate and it just may take its course in a few.  OMG do you know what that means? Nope, and I don't have time to tell you, but he is the center of me and everything that I desire.  Can this really be?  When distance is no longer a factor...will he come back to me?  I don't even know how to feel...Can this be?  I have to ask again because I am so excited about the possibility to.  But for what it's worth, if it is never to be, I will still bask in what we have and no one knows me better than he!  This is great.  Time has a wonderful way of making my life journey great...

To be continued...

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HOUSTON, TEXAS, DECEMBER 1, 2009: Audreyanna Garrett’s “Writer's Block” is the sequel to Diary In Reverse, release previously this year. Garrett composed this conclusion to the very passionate and heartfelt “Diary In Reverse”, in which she exposes an ex-relationship through poetry and verse. She captures her attempt to move forward from the past feelings associated with a previous relationship.

“In Writer's Block I ask readers to come and take a stroll with me, to experience me on the streets and blocks of life…” Garrett’s book will be released on December 1, 2009.

For more information, contact Audreyanna Garrett at audreyannagarrett@gmail.com.


“I leave pieces of him, of our story, behind on each block and each street I encounter. I give you my Writer's Block literally...”

Happy Thanksgiving

All,

I am wishing everyone a very Happy Thanksgiving. Be blessed and be safe this holiday season.

Remember you are here, alive and breathing this day and some are not.

You are blessed and you are loved.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

The Vocalist

I hear her
Inside
Yelling
To the top of her lungs
She wants you to hear too
She wants to sing to you
But the outer layer
Overpowers
And in
She remains
Unless he can play the key
That moves
She needs that beat
That bass
That makes
Them one
And then
She allows she to be
Can't fight harmony
It moves

Can you hear?
She may let you
Although she is so loud
I can hear
I can feel
I do not know if my heart can keep it in too
Let's rethink this

Let her be
The blood that populates my vains screams
They are working together now
All I need is courage now
Help me release her
The vocalist
You need to hear her
NOW

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Karma

If you gain nothing else from this post please know that karma is real. That golden rule that hung in the front of the bus and lingered throughout your classroom still applies to your adult life.

This is for the one who deceived me. Had me thinking that we were more than just friends. I had inducted you into my family and you hulled me. Had me thinking you were down for me and you clowned. Hurting the ones who would move mountains to put a smile on your face. You do not realize, but you will, in due time you will choose to allow life to present you with the outcome that derived from your choices. You can only blame you, because you chose.

I, for what it is worth, hold not one ounce of anger, hate or disgust for you. I actually feel bad for you. I can only pray that one day God shows you truth. I pray that you open yourself up to learning; sad that you had to learn through consequence but we have all had our turn.

So, to you I wish peace as you encounter the consequence of the unknown. Thought you knew but you will suffer for inexperience. Now, I await the day that the sun shines again in your favor.

Open your eyes to what is right in front of you.  Just because it is not what you want to hear, it doesn't mean that it is bad for you.

Be smart; don't choose to suffer for nothing.

One Love

WRITER'S BLOCK

This is not just a blog (www.theverticalperspective.blogspot.com) but it is also the SEQUAL to DIR (DIARY IN REVERSE) which if you have not got your copy yet you should....It is great and the reviews say the same.

Just about a few more months and I will be able to give you more information on Writer's Block but I can guarantee you it will be worth your time and money.

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This is only the begining...STAY TUNED!

Titleless Conclusion

This is the titleless one
The one where the words express
All that the title can NOT say
All that my heart can feel
It is too deep
He is too deep
Or was too deep
In me
Miss him
Fear a future
Engulfed in the SETTLED
Not
Not anything I could have ever wished
Not anything I could have ever seen
Not in me
Not in
My world

He came
He shook shit up
Nose
Head
Legs
Bed
Wide open
He owned me
He had the power
But now I take it back
Rationed
He gets a portion
And
He doesn't like it
He get's half
It won't suffice
Spoiled him

Shit

What to do now?
Keep giving him words with no meaning
Keep giving him false hopes
Keep giving him reason to believe
In future
That I do not want
Yet I do want
Just not with him

Closure

I need it now
My heart longs
For
This contentment with
Closure

He believes
What I do not want to embrace
His trace
More vivid now
Every fiber of his being
Longed for more now
It hurts
So bad
I want to tell him once more
What I have said many times
No point
My heart must now link up with his mind
But
Somewhere inside I know
I see in his eyes
He is not done
There is sadness there
He longs for me
Just as I long for him
But
He is not ready there
I want to be
But my goals
Depreciate my worth to him
They are more important
He won't deny
Loving a woman
Who wants to give more to herself
Cause
The more she gives
To her
The more she wants to give
To him

Time of the essence here
How do we close it
Every time he sees me
I loose focus
Want it all back
But since I use
The effects
I doubt that
I will lose it all

As the chapter closes
One entry
One verse
One poem at a time
I still have the memories
When his eyes meet mine
And time will stand still
In his smile
Until he owns
His truth
Void of fear
He will make it better
Place the stitches over the tares
In his pride
And the tears
He hides
For love

PoeTically SpeaKing

I will be revamping PoeTically SpeaKing and re-releasing it in the latter part of the year....wait for it...

I guarantee it will be worth it!

One Love

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Up and Coming Author Prepares for the Release of Second Book of Poetry: Diary In Reverse
Houston, TX -- June 22, 2009 -- “Diary In Reverse is just a poetry collage of real life and love experiences.” With that as the basis, Audreyanna Garrett is set to release her second book of poetry. Diary In Reverse captures the emotion and trials of relationships.

A different perspective to her critically acclaimed 2006 release, Poetically Speaking, Diary In Reverse began as simple journal entries, a way to vent and document challenging life experiences and relational feelings. “I began to write poems and entries about them and then it evolved into to a collage, which I later restructured in to a reversed version of my diary…” says Garrett, “… the irony and inconsistency of some of the sections in the collage give it dynamic. It makes it more realistic and relatable to me. I wanted everyone to be able to relate to the poems.”

The book is scheduled to be released and available for purchase via web on www.lulu.com/diaryinreverse on June 25th 2009. Samples of Garret’s work can be viewed on her blogs at www.soulpoetspeaks.blogspot.com and www.theverticalperspective.blogspot.com. Information for the official book signing and release party will be posted on these sites. “… Diary In Reverse is just a poetry collage of real life and love experiences… it is love made plain…”

For information:
Contact: audreyannagarrett@yahoo.com

The Edit

Just like these corrections made on these pages I flip through, I edit this life...trimming off the loose ends, eliminating the weak friends, who only want to use you. I don't need to express every detail, but just like these words and phrase I skim through I take careful consideration to every trial and glory. Were you apart of the journey? Or did you just coast. Riding the coat tail waiting to float to the one you thought would save you. Just like I thought, a huge disappointment, and the cycle continues. When are you going to make sense of it all? Treat edits like cuts and rid yourself of them all. Rain clears out the past and then we forget it. Unless it was traumatic and who needs the extra. I don't, but you can have it.

Like the new phrases and paragraphs that strike the hand, like the poems I whisper to myself or new friends, its appreciated. Leaving them behind moves you ahead. Get rid of it...the run-ons, the parody, the ironies and let truth through. Can you expect great things when old habits consume you?

I love to play the role of the editor. Taking control over life like I control this script. If you can't play the part, I simply edit it. If you are not cut out, just consider yourself eliminated. And it goes with out saying. I do not suffer for it. Your loss I just gave it to you. I just put it in your face, gave you clarity...you claimed it and made it tangible.

So I encourage you to seek the opportunities to make the edits. Be the editor. You maybe surprised at the amount of peace you experience.

One Love!

It's been awhile...

So, it's been awhile since I spoke to you...

Sometimes love has waiting periods
Just like
This cyber interaction
Although it takes
Time
I come back to you
I have to
I need you to release
The stresses
You may experience them too
So I write to free the turmoil
You relate to
Corporate America's demands
Personal dreams
Projects withstand
The time restraints
And I
Could never make it without faith
It only gets better
I claim
Fortune
In near future
Peace adorns
Success tangible
And goals obtained
Now time brings
The new
And I start again
Until the next while...

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I am excited about the release of Diary In Reverse...It should be concluded in June. Stay tuned...

Other than that, check out www.theverticalperspective.blogspot.com...

Why

This post I think I just have a lot of questions.......


Why do Blacks feel like Pappadeaux is fine dining?

Why do we not expose ourselves to other things...think outside the box.

Why do we have to start asking serious first date questions? Things like "When was the last time you had sex? Did you catch anything? Do you have Mono? Etc...

If I asked you to go to the RIVER would you go? Or would you say "what is that, only white people do that?"

If I asked you what was your favorite restaurant would you say Scott's? (that is a Sport's Bar not restaurant with HORRIBLE SERVICE)

I wonder why every trip that requires money is to expensive, but you go broke in the Galleria every 1st and 15Th? Why? Can you not experience something other than Bebe?

Why do we live for LS's & LB's? (When you really don't have anything in common with
these people nor do you like them much)

Yes this is kind of gender specific, but let me help the fella out....

Why do you allow yourself to be taken care of by a female?

Why?

Why do we not wear condoms? Diseases spread like 9000....

Why is "smediums" the new large? Nigga those pants fit your knees tight, they ain't your size! Get it together...

Can you explain why some men claim the kids but find it hard to take care them? Do you even know what take care of a child means? Probably not...and in that case we should NOT have had kids!

Why does everyone want to create a new style? It is ok to go along sometimes...You can deviate from the general a little but don't be on a boat by yourself and hope that everyone catches on....Chances are there is not a chance!

These are just questions BTW....

Why is it that nails that curve ok? That is not professional in any way.

Why do we feel like we are too good to work? Collecting food stamps is not exactly all you are capable of.

Why do some black men take METRO SEXUAL TO FAR? Yes there is a limit fellas get a clue...your clothes can fit but not be tight, space between pinky fingers in cups are not hot, rings, bracelets and matching sunglasses with outfits is not all that cute...Leave a little masculinity for us to cling to. Clean shaven is ok...eyebrow wax is not! Pedicures and Manicures are risky....try at your own risk.

Why do we get lost in comfort? Do you not want more?

Why do we allow excuses for prostitution? Gold-digging is no longer a plausible explanation for dropping your drawers for money? Get some respect...Cause he sure ass hell doesn't respect you. Let me tell ya.

Why do some feel like everyone around them is keeping them down? Have you tried to help yourself? Are you handicap or retarded? Probably NOT....Try harder.

Why is GED enough? There are enough rappers....do something else.

Why do we feel like $20 dollar cover is expensive?

Why do we feel like $20 VIP is where that is? I don't want to be where everyone think they rich for 20 bucks sippin' on Corona's and shit...Get a real drink...and by more than ONE!

Why don't men buy woman drinks while out anymore? It seems like they have to be 30+ to even know/recognize that this is courteous...especially if you are going to try and be rubbin' on her butt all night.

Why do guys stare when they like you? Nigga be more cool! You just scared the heck out of me...Now you are a stalker..

Why do your heels lean to the outside when you walking straight?

Why are you still wearing round toes? Those guys are old....

Why is GAY/Bisexual the new STRAIGHT? What is that about? I do not hate any individual choices, do you but just don't expect to persuade me to do it too...Move a around.

Ok I am done now because I could go on forever...but these are just question...most are pure COMEDY!!