Butterflies

I long for the feeling

more than once

a wave of energy

not lust

attraction

adoration

undying anticipation

longing of another

thats what it feels like

butterflies...

Loving me...

I adore him

Friends 

Lovers

Life partner

He gives me life

And hope to love again

He gives me strength

His unbiased love gives me energy 

To breath again

My heart now pumps air 

Thanks to a dear friend

His smile rejuvenated me

His kisses so pleasing to me

Life in his arms is destined to be

Thank you

For loving me

Sensually stoking my ambition

Tongue exploring my imperfections 

His voice speaking to my dreams

His hands always catching me

Hugs of support 

I exhale he

And it feels so good to breath 

Forever 

In the arms of my best friend

I would die to be reborn 

And live this life over again

A Dose of Literary Heaven

So I have gone missing
only to return
the grand gesture
giving you a dose
of
none other than literary heaven
the way the words form lines
and fill up pages
unknown to me
because
all I see
is fingers typing
what my soul speaks
all natural
genuine beats
the sound of my heart
create the melody of this peace
you see
literature is me
more than a piece
all that I am
I write what I see
hear
think
and all that I be
you read
no rules
the words come together to give you
me
so
I hope you have your glass of water
you need something to help you swallow
this dose
of literary freedom
I grant you peace

Love made easy...

And I'm anxious

A little kid again

Blushes and short grins

You got me in...

I'm sold

On the hope of 

I'm wishing for never-ending acts of

Subtle touches

And kind words 

You inspire me

In ways unheard

A deep rooted connection

Shared values and humility

I'm drawn to your passion

And likeness of me

We are one

And it's more than a shared dance 

Our souls intertwined 

As we tango with the joys of love

And now this life

Is everything I hoped it would be

I'm no longer witnessing

I'm experiencing 

I'm living

Fulfilling destiny

In your smile

Rewriting the stories

New love trials

Happy tales

Void 

Of bad dreams

Hallow hearts

Faithlessness 

And hopelessness

We make the most of it

And

I realized 

I'd never imagined this life

Without you in it

Patience is of virtue

I wasn't looking

But you had to

And now love made easy

Because you followed the model...

The Reality Is...

It's definitely a shame that prejudice is still alive and well in the great country.  It is sad that so many of us are still stuck and fighting for restoration from prejudice experienced by our ancestors.  Similarly it is ridiculous that some are still living to maintain those prejudice established!  How can we call this the land of the free when there are still those trying to enslave?  Makes no sense to me.  I am working hard now to make a better life for myself but no matter how hard I work I am aware of the fact that it could all be taken from me in a moment by acts of hate is just ridiculous.   What we too have to be mindful of is that certain reactions to prejudice are counterproductive.  Certain mindsets hinder us from growth as a race and as a country.  We must strive to work on ourselves to be better people and work on changing the mindsets of our children.  And that is the reality!  We are imperfect people living in an imperfect world!  Fact of the matter is we will never be perfect but the least we could so is live by the golden rule...do unto others as you would have them do unto you...

One love

Coward

I am nothing like
My shadow
Which hides
I face myself always
I confront my choices everyday

I am...

I don't run away from fate
I look my soul in its face
And I give it what it needs
I give light
To the space between
Fiction and reality
Emotionally I welcome your heart
I embrace your fear
I speak to your rational thought
And from me
It makes perfect sense

Not...

I am open to the choices that contribute to my happiness
I don't use my past as a hinderance
You know what you want
So
Go for it

A...

In this life
Love is more often counterfeit
When you find it
Chase it
It means that much more
When you work for it
Only the weak
Make excuses
For poor choices

Coward!

Calling your bluff...

In love
You two look fine
But inside your heart cries
Not fulfilled
Like what was
You make due
Unhappily you try to
Build ties
But it won't suffice
With second place
Because if she knew
The phone call took place
After my decline
I would hate to take your place
The wraf
Green face...

I wish you much courage
All I want is for you to be true
Your heart has never been more loyal
More content
More exuberant
With anyone but
Me...
Is that not true?
You said love one time...
I know where your heart lies
In my smile
My eyes
My...

So
In tune
I see you
And you love me
More than you are willing to say
So easily discouraged but you know what's true
That's why I'm calling your bluff
You need me
And our hearts longs for
Soul tunes
We sung
Through laughs
Sincere love
So fold your cards
No more games
No more bluffing
I can't take this pain...

I dare you to be
Subjected to my face
One glimpse in my eyes
Hear me speak one word
Have my skin touch yours
I bet
You can not resist
The soul tie to strong
The bond unbreakable
Our love unstoppable
No boundaries
Forever present
Infinite
We are

I live

I live through the possibility
Of love
Long nights
And sun filled days
New adventures
And long awaited waves
Sun bathing in
Knowledge
I glisten beneath the stars
In dim light
I make you smile
At thoughts of acceptance
Peace
Tranquility
I give you everything
I give you me
I give you
Life
For all eternity
I hope you seek me...

Sweet dreams

I can rest now
I found peace in the space you consume now
In thought
You read me
And now I'm at peace
So I can seek
That dark space
Between my eyelids
Gravity
Pulling me to dreams
I retreat
Deep sleep
Sweet dreams
Finally...

Heart is smiling...

Everyday I am happy with a recent decision

Hints the reason for my heart smiling

So I want to take a moment

Some reflection time

Some much needed R&R

I welcome the sunshine

Kiss my soul

Make love to my skin

I welcome the light

I breath you in

And 

I show you

In a way you have never seen

In a way love has never known

In a way my soul longs

I smile

Not from my mouth

But from my heart

I give you happiness

On a new plateau

And you take it as you must

But I will say this

That this smile

That radiates from my chest

Is because

I know me best

And his love

And peace

Has surpassed my understanding

He is

Love 

And I am

Living...

Dreads...

Those long

Matted things 

Got me feeling

Like a dog in heat

And I am trying to contain

But temptation defeats

My mind lost in thought

With each touch

And I see

Strand by strand

Detailed stories

Of love and emotion

Unable to be conversed

You wear it well

Falling just in the right spot

Tempting me to touch places I should not

And there is nothing better than

Running fingers through you

Tangible excitement

I envision smiles neverending

Joy unyielding

You feel amazing

I knew it could be true

The connection stable

Growing

Like these things

Sprout from the mind

Of a man who craves

To make my heart his home

Dreads

Who would have thought

You

Would take me there

On an emotional journey

Through hair

Something so simple

Giving me great pleasure

And stories to treasure

Forever

I will never forget

The way

You speak

Quiet whispers

Sending it all through the tips

Of my fingers

Doing it again and again

Addicted to your wisdom

Originally posted on my Tumblr (www.audriwrites.tumblr.com) approximately 3 months ago for... :)

Broken Communication

Some say
Opposites attract
But in our case
Opposites lack
The ability to communicate
In reverse we say
All that needs to be said
Without consideration to
Your needs
My feelings
Or the simple fact that words bleed
Ears
And hinder progression
Skeptical
Future at stake
We try to mend
The way we communicate
Broken
Like the crack in my voice
From the screams
You seem never to get it
Unsure of what other lessons to learn
We can't keep up with the rhythm
We fight every ounce of willingness
To listen
So we hear nothing
And communication remains
Broken...

The Unknown

Unclear
So much so
That I can see crystal
In the fog
Future so cloudy
Today I took a fall
Stumbled into the present
Vision absent
Life shifted
Away from what was
Into what has always been
Now unveiled
And the only thing that is certain
Is that my path
I no longer steer
Guided toward the light
But I understand that I must be malleable
For life is unpredictable
Just like that stumble
And my options were made a new
Just like my direction
I now follow to
Seek clarity
My fog
I walk aimlessly
Into
The unknown

A Brick Wall

I was making progress
Then I hit
A brick wall
Larger than 20 feet tall
And I stumbled back
Looking left and right
I felt defeated
What happened to my fight?
Fear consumed me
My heart stung greatly
And I
I had to make a decision
Love was new
Sweet
Nurturing if I returned
But on the other side of that wall
My mind deemed you
The greatest love of all
And
Now
I must decide my fate
As I stand here and face
Glaring at the brick wall
The median
Between
Me
And
You

In limbo...

I am stuck in the middle
wishing
hoping
praying for equilibrium
but no hope yet
still miss understood
unheard
unclear
with no words
I can't change my state
but I hope life is better
with the influence of fate
change my space
put me in first place
because no one wants to be
in limbo