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Thursday, April 16, 2015

Why...

It makes no sense to me
The why
Often questioned
So few times 
Answered
Lay still
Silence 
Feeling the weight
Rhythm 
And necessity 
Of breath
And I wonder
If that's exactly where I should be 
Why
Nothing 
Matters
Why 
Often questioned 
So few times answered
Then
Stopped looking
The more you understand
The more 
You complicate things 
Why
When left unanswered 
Means 
Everything

Monday, April 6, 2015

Cut Off

Sometimes we have to be careful of what we ask for.  In life respect is a concept so often misused.  You should not demand respect from individuals you show no respect to.  This negatively impacts the natural order of things.  Respect is given and received.  Notice that "to give" comes before receiving.  I tried very hard to show respect in spite of adversity.  No matter how stubborn, childish and immature someone was.  The desire to continue was fueled by love, nothing more or less.  Love is patient and kind, all those I exhibited even when it was not easy for me to do so.   Now I have given enough without being heard and respected.  In these situations you edit your life, cut those people who mean you no good off.  That doesn't mean be angry, sad or feel any type of pain from the loss, it just means you are wise enough to know what you deserve.  Be wise enough to make the decision to eliminate the factor that will do you harm.  And what you deserve weighs more than what you want to give someone else.

As children one of the things we wanted most was to be an adult.  We craved the responsibility and the freedom, but we did not know the extent of the responsibility one receives with that freedom.  Now as an adult we see that sometimes it is too much to manage.  Too many choices and not enough right answers.  How do we ensure that we are making the right decisions? We have no affirmation most of the time.  We base what we know to be right and wrong on cultural standards and religious precedents.  We do what we feel is right.  Often times leaning on the notion "do unto others as you would have them do unto you".  So are you?  Are you doing all those things that you would want someone to do to you?  That is the question of which adults responses are often contradictory.

What is certain is that in this life I want to make sure to experience every ounce of love, happiness and valuable lessons I can.  With that comes dealing with people who lack understanding of your purpose.  You come into contact with people whose ideals do not align with your goals and we have to make decisions to separate ourselves from those people.  Love from a distance.  Cut them off if you will, but not with any ill intention or negative emotion.  I find that I try my best to establish an emotional balance before I take such measures.  What I have recently discovered is that no matter how good or positive your intentions are, if the other person is not willing to see "the good" it will not be seen.  What I am trying to figure out now is how to deal with that reality...