Longing

Longing

A new emotion?

The anticipation

That requires focus on ones heart's desire

But when is it too much?

How long is too long?

How do we diffuse such?

All questions of the many

Whose heart's desire remain unanswered

And there is no right

Or one answer

But

When it's right 

Longing won't be required

The only emotion prominent

Will be that of joy

Because the one who should remain

Will stay

And no pain will ever take the place

And your life 

Void of unnecessary emotion 

Therefore 

Love manifests

In

Joy and choices 

For you...

You...

your eyes

forever sincere

send an invitation of love

to my heart

and my soul

longs to dance forever

in your world

of peace

generosity

humility

respect

I honor you

my king

forever

this world is perfect

as long as my journey

holds memories

of heartbeats

breaths

dances

and kisses

shared with you

for I only need one moment

in time

one day

one hour

one minute

one memory 

of you

to fill my world with a lifetime  of love

I can't wait

to hold you

I long to kiss you

one time

is all I need

and yes you are a necessity

a desire just the same

you are my eternity

the man

with whom I will share

a last name

Love on repeat

He makes it so easy

To love 

Through all his imperfections

We

Strive to be

Make

Work for

And cherish one another

In love

He strokes my soul

With sincerity

And when I close my eyes

To ask God for clarity

He holds my hand

And forever

Begins and ends

Never ending

Like a record skipping

Or a song 

That leaves you breathless

My heart rejoices

As we 

Love

On repeat

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They say smiles are contagious
But I caught on to you
Your spirit infectious
And I am no longer yearning to remain
Caged
I can't make you pay
For what has past
You make me want to
Soar above the clouds
Seek new heights
You
Break away the barrier
Of memories
Left by pain
Regret
And defeat
Since
Erased
By your honesty
Sincere grin
Humble eyes
Passionate stare
And
Never-ending embrace
You
Gave way to
Optimism
Now set in
I see you
For the man I longed for
The friend I craved to share with
Every moment in my journey
I welcomed you in
And you invade me
Providing support to my purpose
Supplying patience to my being
When I can't seem to make sense of it all
You
My clarity
The source of my happiness
And although I want to fight you
My heart needs to
Desire a man
Who puts for every effort
To make me feel beautiful

Never Ending Smiles

You know
I once thought smiles
no longer lived
in my world
no longer desired
just admired
and I stomached the shadows
cast by doubt
but
then you
gave me
never ending memories
bliss
and I can't shake this feeling
in just a few short weeks
you invest in me
things unheard
things deserved
things longed for
and I appreciate you
for trusting in me
and blessing me
with never ending smiles
if this is what you call ecstasy
my love is yours for eternity

Elated...

I am so happy 

Elated 

Is fit to describe 

The vibes

Experienced on this ride

Called life

My journey

Like no other 

And each day

Each hour

Each minute

Make moments

Of love

Consciousness 

Ambition

For higher self

Greater understanding

Sharing wealth 

Of knowledge 

Our greatest tool

To understand

The cycle continues

With or without you 

Another broken heart

I can't understand why 

I am

Constantly caught in 

This world wind 

Not you 

Not he

But feelings and love run deep

So why

Why keep playing with the key

To my soul

First thought of moving on with you

From he

Who drained my heart

And hardened me

Stiff 

Numb

For everything 

I 

With no feeling 

Until you

Now

I stand alone 

In fear

Can I go on in love?

Because between he and you

I

Don't want to

Risk 

Another broken heart 

Where did you go...

in your arms
I escaped
my safe haven you were
as I
scared
bruised
broken
scars still showing from an unfortunate battle
love
and war
now I understand noone ever wins
but you
swept me off my feet
soul sung tunes
melodic gestures of hope I saw in your eyes
sincerity
I trusted you
you gave me hope
you gave me love
you melted me away
I longed for you
against my will
I was too
fragile
so
was it just a temporary thrill?
I can't determine if it was real
but my smile was
the sun showed through my soul
I warmed you
and anyone else in my presence
but
I dont know where it went
where are you?
I need to feel safe
I need to be in your arms again
my heart speaks to you
rescue me
because I can't find you
where did you go?

I got

Mild butterflies 

A reminder of what love feels like

And

Although

Not what I thought it would look like 

Extensions of peace

Innocence

Sweet justice

And true regard for me 

I welcome it

Muddy water

There is no

Crystal ball

I see

Muddy water

And 

I lost the ability to see

Grey

Not even blue is familiar to me

And I want peace to be still

Closed eyes

Deep breaths

Life is upon me

Let me hear sounds of serenity

I long for you

I love for you 

My soul dances at the thought of you

Seek me

I'm amidst the muddy water

Strangers are plenty

Love is few

Trying to find a way through

I close my eyes 

To let your voice guide me through 

Precious Things

we are all flawed
yet precious
and occasionally vicious
but life
so grey
void of clear solutions
so many variables
so many differences
so much to consider for one decision
therefore we regret
wrong choices
bad motives
ill intentions
we regret selfishly
but
in the grand scheme of things
we are still precious
as all things of this life
so
take not simple things for granted
breath
light
vision
the ability to touch
smiles
thoughts
sound
and to be
free
because tomorrow
and now
are moments
minutes
and hours
apart
but effects eternity
as changes occur
in a second
and life is forever changed
void of precious things
that support our being...

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In everything I am

I gave light

Love

And life to you

Air

We breath as one soul

United

Strength untold

And to let me go

Meant

To allow your world

Now unknown

For I was the peace 

Pride

Dreams 

Guide

I held your hand

In the storm 

I shield you from 

The facade

Truth

In the form of 

Me

Life 

Love

Light 

I gave you breath

I gave you

Me

You left

Now to return in solace

But
You took
The hand of another

So

All that she gives you 

Must do...
You made the choice
So I no longer guide you

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A knot

Continuously tightened

What I feel

Pain

In the name of love 

My emotions left  

In the shadows

Never to return

Left

Broken

And I can't explain

Moving on 

Challenge with no gain

No progress

You leave me speechless

Action less I am

Lost 

Very little brain activity

But my heart beats rapidly 

In search of you

To answer the questions

The why

And how

But

You always played it safe

Yet 

Take note

That love of this caliber always has it's place

In due time

You won't be able to save face

Choices can't change fate

Something inside...

something like
a bit sized
measure
of
light
shined through
and I saw you
like a flower
never blossomed
fragile
yet true
stuck in the shadows
I groom
light
through
time
to find something inside
that moves you...