Damn

Originally Posted November 27, 2007

 

Damn

Your mind

Soul

And words

Baffle me

So amazing

That I can't quite decipher

Your drive

Or maybe

Maybe it's me

You are driven by me

So abrupt I entered your world

Turned you inside out

And now

You don't know which way is up

And

Now

I have allowed for you to

Jeopardize my space

My world

It is so mixed up in you

Damn

Sent

Chills down my spine with your words
and your voice bypasses all

Goes straight to my blood

It supports me

What would I be without it

Now that I know

It is

Damn

Your mind

Soul and words

Baffle me

But now

I have no choice

But to continue

To allow them to be

The reason I Am

The reason I Be

Untitled

Originally Composed March 5, 2008 

Perfectionism With me being a perfectionist Perfectionism has me Doing this shit Over and Over And over Until I get it right My breath is still Now As you Listen to Or read Scrutinize And critique So Half ass Half done And thrown together Are not in my vocabulary Just as I sung my first note First note in front of you You watched Better yet stared And compared my Eccentricity to many But when I return To the stage with my Verses, Choruses, And Bridges You will want more Yearn my return As you hum my melodies That continue To linger in your ear Nerves, brain And bloodstream Cause you can't let it go That is what initial hating does Makes me better And make you A fan Maybe a jealous one But a fan nonetheless So thanks Thank you For being the ice In my Crown Royal Trying to water it down But its to potent So it takes awhile So here I am now Better Stronger Wiser Bolder Getting right for you So you can Have more to scrutinze Giving me more to manipulate into greatness Cause Over and  Over and  Over I do this shit My talent My craft I live this shit That's the life of this PERFECTIONIST

Past Paradise pt.2

I've given everything

She

Her

Me

I

Have 

Nothing left

So you took me

Now

You consume

My every thought

My soul

My heart

Wants no part 

Of life

Without you

So

I guess
I will keep 

Past paradise 

On repeat...

Brand New (5/3/2010)

I am feeling like fresh white sneaks

Leaving squeaks until they get used to the crease

I am

Giving you the feeling of first time excitement

I am so speechless

Silence speaks

You got me, feeling love in undefined places

Its like the brand new feelings

As we share butterfly kisses

Leaving the taste of love

Creeping up in the stranges places

And I need to grasp it

The love handle that tickles

The smiles that teases

And then its time to release

Those new sheets have to get old sometime

That clean car gets duty afterwhile

And that shine goes dull in the meantime

But

Everytime our eyes meet

Our souls speak

And it feels like the very first time

And I get weak

In all the undefined places

I get

Brand new feelings

And the cycle is never ending 

It's All Coming Back To Me (7/22/2010)

It fell back into my lap like
The way I fell in my Dad's when I was a little girl
It bounced back into my memory
Like I bounce to old school jams
It hit me like a ton of bricks
And I couldn't help but be overcome by it
The memory longed to be tangible
And I wanted it even more
Then it all came back

Silent seduction
Lip kissed thighs
Tounge teased crevices that longed for him to drive
It felt like Heaven

I miss the twenty minute meetings
The ones that felt like twenty hours
Silence lingered amoungst the space between my hips and his
We turned all that we could not say into passion
And it felt great to live it
To experience it
LOVE
And it's all coming back now
The way he touched my soul
The way I stroked the dome
I aimed to please and he was all that I could ever want or need

The memories flood
Now drowned out by the rain that pours
Missing the sunny days
The love we made
The laughs we shared
And all that took us there
But its all coming back to me now

There was never an alternative
This pair is so compatible
You have been troubled trying to find someone adequate
But he asked for it
So
As he reads
The words press play on the memories
And it all comes back to him now

The Power of Confidence (8/19/2010)

You hide behind the shadow of you

So caught up in the unnatural

Engulfed in the facade of perfection

Can't comprehend

The power that speaks volumes
The quiet in the storm
The illuminated soul
It's radiant
I see what you are
You see what you want to be
Unleveled
You take time away from self development
To build on the politically correct/socially accepted you
Don't even know you
Don't listen to your heart to hear its truth
Quiet now
Peace is still
Take a second to really exhale
What do you see?
Life in reality
Real time
In this I find sincerity
I take pride in me here
It's home
It allows me to be at peace
Even when I am alone
If you don't realize the power you hold
You can never convince me
I will never believe you
Let confidence guide
Let your pride ride
Not steer
Humility is accepting the faults
Use them
I speak volumes
My words move mountains
You witness the greatness
You see the light that illuminates
I can't fake it
The smile is pure and I BELIEVE
I HAVE FAITH
My confidence exudes
No fear
There is no hesitation
It is the acceptance of choice
Don't take for granted the consequences
Let them teach you
Let the hurt prompt you
Falling is ok
Just remember not to break
You are as great as your greatest thought
Make light of you
Let it drive you
Use the confidence as power
Don't let it overtake you
Too much of anything can overwhelm you
I am watching
I am waiting
Embrace YOU
I want to share this peace with you

ONE LOVE

Something to Empower (11/23/2010)

In light of recent discoveries and realizations, I feel that it is necessary for me to address empowerment.  I want to lift up all my black women and black men and encourage them to conquer.  There can be no change without the will to change and we are so stuck in the vicious cycle that often times we allow ourselves to be consumed with negativity.  We always want to discuss the wrong and what we could do better, but there is no initative to make it better.  You are not in this world alone, and no matter how much of an individualist we try to be, we are a reflection of our history, our present and it is in direct relationship with the perception developed about our future.  So I hope this moves you...

Call on the fight that dwells within you
Seek the child whose hand  needs you
Lift the heart of the man whose worth has been devalued
Remember the history
Take the stories
The dark tales
The battered, bruised and broken bodies
And untouched souls
The fight that stirred in the hearts of those
Who held on
To pass it on too you
Make it work in your world
In this world WE need to
Make peace
Build the foundation of our community
Encounter selflessness
Make love prevelent
Apply tender kisses to brokeness
Dry the eyes of lonely nights
Feed the mouths of foodless lives
Busy the hands of workless times

Make a change
There is no better time

In Case You Didn't Know (Originally Posted 10/26/2010)

Just like white lies

They surface

And once in awhile

They are mine
I try to control them
Deep within
That which you do not need to know
For what
To use against me
To manipulate me
In case you are unaware
There are no puppets here
No strings tied to my back
I talk on my own here
This life I live
I drive alone
So I keep secrets
To keep you close
And him closer

She who scowled at my rings
The designer brands
And finer things
Kiss my ass
It's free
That shit comes and goes
Just like air
Like life
And the lies you keep in circulation
You won't get ahold to these
Secrets
They encompass my pride
The success that I hide
Modesty
It's attractive
I
Humble
Every moment is precious

To know all
Is to know to much
Human is greed
We don't need that much
Redirect your focus
Steer clear of me
Don't be road blocks
Encounter clarity
Everything is short
Even memory