Titleless Conclusion

This is the titleless one
The one where the words express
All that the title can NOT say
All that my heart can feel
It is too deep
He is too deep
Or was too deep
In me
Miss him
Fear a future
Engulfed in the SETTLED
Not
Not anything I could have ever wished
Not anything I could have ever seen
Not in me
Not in
My world

He came
He shook shit up
Nose
Head
Legs
Bed
Wide open
He owned me
He had the power
But now I take it back
Rationed
He gets a portion
And
He doesn't like it
He get's half
It won't suffice
Spoiled him

Shit

What to do now?
Keep giving him words with no meaning
Keep giving him false hopes
Keep giving him reason to believe
In future
That I do not want
Yet I do want
Just not with him

Closure

I need it now
My heart longs
For
This contentment with
Closure

He believes
What I do not want to embrace
His trace
More vivid now
Every fiber of his being
Longed for more now
It hurts
So bad
I want to tell him once more
What I have said many times
No point
My heart must now link up with his mind
But
Somewhere inside I know
I see in his eyes
He is not done
There is sadness there
He longs for me
Just as I long for him
But
He is not ready there
I want to be
But my goals
Depreciate my worth to him
They are more important
He won't deny
Loving a woman
Who wants to give more to herself
Cause
The more she gives
To her
The more she wants to give
To him

Time of the essence here
How do we close it
Every time he sees me
I loose focus
Want it all back
But since I use
The effects
I doubt that
I will lose it all

As the chapter closes
One entry
One verse
One poem at a time
I still have the memories
When his eyes meet mine
And time will stand still
In his smile
Until he owns
His truth
Void of fear
He will make it better
Place the stitches over the tares
In his pride
And the tears
He hides
For love