Coward

I am nothing like
My shadow
Which hides
I face myself always
I confront my choices everyday

I am...

I don't run away from fate
I look my soul in its face
And I give it what it needs
I give light
To the space between
Fiction and reality
Emotionally I welcome your heart
I embrace your fear
I speak to your rational thought
And from me
It makes perfect sense

Not...

I am open to the choices that contribute to my happiness
I don't use my past as a hinderance
You know what you want
So
Go for it

A...

In this life
Love is more often counterfeit
When you find it
Chase it
It means that much more
When you work for it
Only the weak
Make excuses
For poor choices

Coward!

Calling your bluff...

In love
You two look fine
But inside your heart cries
Not fulfilled
Like what was
You make due
Unhappily you try to
Build ties
But it won't suffice
With second place
Because if she knew
The phone call took place
After my decline
I would hate to take your place
The wraf
Green face...

I wish you much courage
All I want is for you to be true
Your heart has never been more loyal
More content
More exuberant
With anyone but
Me...
Is that not true?
You said love one time...
I know where your heart lies
In my smile
My eyes
My...

So
In tune
I see you
And you love me
More than you are willing to say
So easily discouraged but you know what's true
That's why I'm calling your bluff
You need me
And our hearts longs for
Soul tunes
We sung
Through laughs
Sincere love
So fold your cards
No more games
No more bluffing
I can't take this pain...

I dare you to be
Subjected to my face
One glimpse in my eyes
Hear me speak one word
Have my skin touch yours
I bet
You can not resist
The soul tie to strong
The bond unbreakable
Our love unstoppable
No boundaries
Forever present
Infinite
We are

I live

I live through the possibility
Of love
Long nights
And sun filled days
New adventures
And long awaited waves
Sun bathing in
Knowledge
I glisten beneath the stars
In dim light
I make you smile
At thoughts of acceptance
Peace
Tranquility
I give you everything
I give you me
I give you
Life
For all eternity
I hope you seek me...

Sweet dreams

I can rest now
I found peace in the space you consume now
In thought
You read me
And now I'm at peace
So I can seek
That dark space
Between my eyelids
Gravity
Pulling me to dreams
I retreat
Deep sleep
Sweet dreams
Finally...

Heart is smiling...

Everyday I am happy with a recent decision

Hints the reason for my heart smiling

So I want to take a moment

Some reflection time

Some much needed R&R

I welcome the sunshine

Kiss my soul

Make love to my skin

I welcome the light

I breath you in

And 

I show you

In a way you have never seen

In a way love has never known

In a way my soul longs

I smile

Not from my mouth

But from my heart

I give you happiness

On a new plateau

And you take it as you must

But I will say this

That this smile

That radiates from my chest

Is because

I know me best

And his love

And peace

Has surpassed my understanding

He is

Love 

And I am

Living...

Dreads...

Those long

Matted things 

Got me feeling

Like a dog in heat

And I am trying to contain

But temptation defeats

My mind lost in thought

With each touch

And I see

Strand by strand

Detailed stories

Of love and emotion

Unable to be conversed

You wear it well

Falling just in the right spot

Tempting me to touch places I should not

And there is nothing better than

Running fingers through you

Tangible excitement

I envision smiles neverending

Joy unyielding

You feel amazing

I knew it could be true

The connection stable

Growing

Like these things

Sprout from the mind

Of a man who craves

To make my heart his home

Dreads

Who would have thought

You

Would take me there

On an emotional journey

Through hair

Something so simple

Giving me great pleasure

And stories to treasure

Forever

I will never forget

The way

You speak

Quiet whispers

Sending it all through the tips

Of my fingers

Doing it again and again

Addicted to your wisdom

Originally posted on my Tumblr (www.audriwrites.tumblr.com) approximately 3 months ago for... :)

Broken Communication

Some say
Opposites attract
But in our case
Opposites lack
The ability to communicate
In reverse we say
All that needs to be said
Without consideration to
Your needs
My feelings
Or the simple fact that words bleed
Ears
And hinder progression
Skeptical
Future at stake
We try to mend
The way we communicate
Broken
Like the crack in my voice
From the screams
You seem never to get it
Unsure of what other lessons to learn
We can't keep up with the rhythm
We fight every ounce of willingness
To listen
So we hear nothing
And communication remains
Broken...

The Unknown

Unclear
So much so
That I can see crystal
In the fog
Future so cloudy
Today I took a fall
Stumbled into the present
Vision absent
Life shifted
Away from what was
Into what has always been
Now unveiled
And the only thing that is certain
Is that my path
I no longer steer
Guided toward the light
But I understand that I must be malleable
For life is unpredictable
Just like that stumble
And my options were made a new
Just like my direction
I now follow to
Seek clarity
My fog
I walk aimlessly
Into
The unknown

A Brick Wall

I was making progress
Then I hit
A brick wall
Larger than 20 feet tall
And I stumbled back
Looking left and right
I felt defeated
What happened to my fight?
Fear consumed me
My heart stung greatly
And I
I had to make a decision
Love was new
Sweet
Nurturing if I returned
But on the other side of that wall
My mind deemed you
The greatest love of all
And
Now
I must decide my fate
As I stand here and face
Glaring at the brick wall
The median
Between
Me
And
You

In limbo...

I am stuck in the middle
wishing
hoping
praying for equilibrium
but no hope yet
still miss understood
unheard
unclear
with no words
I can't change my state
but I hope life is better
with the influence of fate
change my space
put me in first place
because no one wants to be
in limbo

Why I write about love?

Someone asked me the other day why I wrote about love. Never been asked that before although I am aware of the fact that love and life consume my work. I'm extremely fascinated by the affects of love and life.

Love to me is more than just a relationship with a loved one or a significant other. To me love applies to many other aspects of life. The passion for love and recognition of its true purpose helps us to understand how to conduct ourselves on a day to day basis. Because quite frankly I'm tired of hearing that someone killed because they were in love, or they are jealous because they are in love, or they hate because they are in love, etc.  I do recognize the thin line between love and hate but that same line is between right and wrong and good and evil to be honest. But when you love you do not hate! Period!

I go more in depth about this in my current literary project, The Love Trials. I hope you all read and do share your thoughts!

Poetically Speaking

So I a have not written a post in awhile so I feel the need to share somethings.   I use this blog to speak poetically, but that does not mean you will not find poetry on my other blogs.   Each of my blogs caters to a certain feel, a certain aspect of life and love that I wish to share with you.   Poetically Speaking encompasses more of my poetry surrounded by the situations of life and love.  I try to talk about things most would not here.  I share feelings that most wish to say but don't here.  I do it so that we can create a bond through words and you can have somewhere to come and know that you can relate to it because  IT IS REAL!

I pride myself on being honest in my work, unless it is deemed fiction of course.  I like to share truth because in my opinion that is the only way to make it relatable.    I want my readers thousands of miles away to be able to feel the pain, excitement, joy that is encompassed in my work because they know and understand the situation and share my emotion.

I speak poetically because I am a poet and I see the world in poetry.   Thank you so much for reading me.  Because that is what I give you, me.  My heart, my love, my world, my situations, my emotions, my anger, my frustrations, me.  And in everything that you read there is a message of hope, peace and love.  I try to show that I am a work in progress and yes it may be tough today, but it will be better tomorrow.  Broken hearts are a phase, encountering jealousy is a phase, loosing life is inevitable, etc.  The more you talk about it, the more you free up yourself, your mind, your soul to focus on the positive.

So again, thank you so much for sharing my stories, my poetry.  If there is anything more I can do for you please let me know.

One Love,

Audreyanna

Greed, Green Eyes & Ignorance

Uncommon
Inconsistent
What we considered
Non-existant
But it's here

Unfavored
Unjust
And betraying
Favored amongst the masses
And the dark can no longer mask it
Now in the light
It fights against the just
Greed
Green eyes
Considered untouched
And now we fall victim to
Ignorance
And God could help those who
Stand for it
But they don't want his love
They fight against it
For power is sought
But
The strength to change the inevitable
Lies in the hearts of believers
Who fear God
And love the unchangeable
Greed
Is a disease
Green eyes
Is the host
And our ignorance
Is the contagion

No one wins a war
But love can fight for the cause

The Passion to Give

Seeing double
Blurred vision
Unexpected
Like all of a sudden
I see two
And nothing is clear
Except
TRUTH

I feel like I am trapped
Pinned down in a spiral of the unfit
Being pulled down in a barrel of the selfish
Because
I am learning
The hard way
That giving is harder for some
Receiving we are all receptive
Without expecting to help
Divide happiness
Peace
And surplus
Instead
In the time of struggle
We latch on to frugal
And in most cases
A blatant unwillingness to be there
For someone else
And I can see color
Even though you all are blurry
And I know that when the tables are turned
Hands are drawn
Palm facing up
Eager to receive
Oblivious to others need
And you will surely see
That
The passion to give
Supersedes receipt

The Happiest Woman Alive

I am happiest when...
I thought I could easily answer
The question
Everyday before
Today
But now I know
Love and happiness lies in you
A love of my own
You show me
The simple things
And life is easy
Still
In your arms
Breath matches
Heartbeat dances
To the same rhythm
Drama aside
Passion multiplied
To easy
You and I
Make me
The happiest woman alive

Chest opened
Heart ripped
Deprived of chance
Opportunity to life
Choice
Now separated from
The possibility
I don't get the chance to cease the moment
Smell the roses
Or lay in your presence
Repeatedly
Because you chose to separate
My existence
From the possibility
Why?
Love is not easy
And being in love is crazy
Emotions strong
Captivating realities
Of the wants
And dislikes
The needs
Desires not alike
But
Preservation of the ability
To come back HOME
Where the heart is...
Home
Where my love is
Home
In the heart
To which you hold the key
And your faith
All I ever want is for you to believe in me
Trust
That I will make it better
Trust that love is all we need to weather
The difficulties

#MotiVatioNWeDnesdaY

So I wanted give some motivation today.  My motivation comes in the form of rational thinking and tough love.  So I have a few questions...

When you woke up this morning how did you feel?

What did you expect from your day?

What is the situation you need motivation out of?

What do you need motivation to do?

Why are you not motivated?

If you have answered one or more of these questions, I would like to suggest that you change your outlook.  Don't look for motivation, instead focus on the need.  Not sure what I mean...well take these examples.  Think about how you feel versus how you need to feel.  What you expect versus what you need to expect.  Where you are versus where you need to be, etc.  Sometimes we allow ourselves to get caught up in the lack of motivation versus what we need.  You will find that focusing on the need will channel your motivation.  It will eliminate the questions.  Some people think of what they need to do and think they need motivation when they need to simply understand the NEED for what they are doing.  That need serves as the purpose/reason.  The need serves as the motivating factor.

Motivation by definition is the act or an instance of motivating,  or providing with a reason to act in a certain way  (2) the state or condition of being motivated   (3) something that motivates;  inducement; incentive (dictionary.com).  

With that being said we should stop allowing people and things to motivate things that we may not need.  Only you know what you need.  You know where you want to be and what your expectations are.   Stop being lazy and codependent and think about you needs.  I don't understand how so many people want to put off their current state on someone else.  Never taking the fault for why they are in the positions their in.  It is understandable that we do not have control over all circumstances, but we do have the capability to make choices.  Our choices contribute to the circumstances as well.  So instead of sulking or being lazy trying to place blame, take responsibility for your choices.  If you aren't where you want to be you need to make new decisions.  What do you need to do to get to where you want to be?  Allow that to be your motivation.  Let me know what happens!  

One Love,

Audreyanna

Shades of You

So
You woke up
Eyes glowing
Sun kissed
Gazing into my eyes
And I
Never surprised when you
Turn shades of blue
Melancholy
Bound by emotions
Your to afraid to
Expose
So in denial
You act as if I
Don't matter
Now
Shades of confusion
You
Try to determine the difference
Between love
And in love
Failed
Now frustration filled arms
Keep you away
From
Me
And I
Bring you back to
Shades of joy
With just one kiss
You remember the love
And your fixed
Discarded discombobulation
Then you see
A glimpse of happiness
In past lies
Or in new thighs
And you
Turn again
Throwing shade from every angle
Now
I
Fed up
Take turns showing you the emotions you gave me in one motion
Back turned
Head high
I keep walking
With no concern for your melancholy
You want to bring clarity to your confusion now
But I don't hear you
I have joy
In the eyes who take pride in the stride
That led me away from you

Shades of Envy

Your eyes
Now a funky shade of green
And I
Still see things
Bluer than ever
Yet
I can't seem to find the meaning
Behind those
Green eyes
You had the opportunity to share life
And love
Now only to find that all that was
Is no longer desired
So you
See
Shades of envy
Longing for what was once your own
With hopes of
Second chances
And you digress
For years
But what seem like moments
In soul time
You make due
With comfort ability
You seek space
In time capsules
Recollecting
And your eyes keep getting greener
And your heart keeps getting weaker
And your soul lonelier...
Ruffling through the shades of envy

Love is...

Love is...
Only as strong as you make it
Only blind as you allow
And
Only as long as you demand
Love is...
Supreme
In the grand scheme
Love is everything
Life
Breath
Speech
Its keen
Its KING
To understanding purpose
To fulfilling your mission
The definition of love
Encompasses existence
So
Love is...